petit miam

LOL

2007-07-02T07:25:00.000-07:00

jus saw the starting part of just follow law.. the movie..
lol
and the 4 Bs are damn cool!

Bang Sai, Bang Jio, Bang Pui, Bang Gang!
yea!!

siao liao..
byebye!

-

2007-06-27T07:28:00.000-07:00

2 weeks more
i cant believe its coming to an end so soon especially when up till now, there is nothing concrete
im beginning to wonder if i made the right choice by giving up this june hols, time that i could have spent with my books, friends and family.... especially my family...
hahhaa..
i keep hearing this so often now" you are finally at home!"

oh wells... i really hope everything turns out well because i hate it when im so careless and i hate it when i have to repeat days of work because of one stupid blunder
it was very coincidental but that day when so many days of work went down the drain the music player in the lab started playing hero by mariah carey
ahhhaa

to bready: thank you for everything! =) really hope we can talk more when we're both less busy! u really rock too!

random

2007-06-23T18:29:00.000-07:00

to bready:

天间- faye

风雨过後不一定有美好的天空
不是天晴就会有彩虹
所以你一脸无辜不代表你懵懂
不是所有感情都会有始有终
孤独尽头不一定惶恐
可生命总免不了最初的一阵痛

但愿你的眼睛只看得到笑容
但愿你流下每一滴泪都让人感动
但愿你以後每一个梦不会一场空

天上人间如果真值得歌颂
也是因为有你才会变得闹哄哄
天大地大世界比你想像中朦胧
我不忍心再欺哄但愿你听得懂

但愿你会懂该何去何从

i'm addicted to this song X)

when ..........

2007-06-15T05:09:00.000-07:00

......... your mentor is too nice

i always hear people saying that their mentors are not nice to them and everything
but what happens when your mentor is too nice?

when he doesnt scold when you ask so many questions,
is willing to go through the research plan for you and make so many corrections (not scribble by the side but type out.. ),
doesnt get frustrated when your experiments fail repeatedly and even offer to do one parallel to you,
and just say "its okay" (and smiles abit）when you waste a solution that costs so much...

sigh......... im feeling so guilty for imposing on him...... hes just too nice.........

eye emm see bee

2007-06-06T08:29:00.000-07:00

lol.. today was damn funny
anw, jayen and i decided that we did not like this teacher in the same lab as us
so we were trying to guess her surname in the train
guess what we came up with?

okay
if her name is jane, we would like her surname to be chow so that we can call her chow jane
and if thats her father's surname, and she marries a guy with the surname chao,
her name would thus become... chao-chow jane (it means smelly smelly jane in hokkien)
and we started laughing hysterically

yep so anw
these past few days we had to repeat some experiments that we did b4 last wk and carry out some new ones and our we have come up with the conclusion that our mentor has a veryvery huge brain

we only know a few procedures and we cant even remember them! and for him, he can just tell us the steps so quickly and accurately! omg。。
yea
and then we came up with this PHD theory

according to our dictionary,
phd = permanent head damage
but...... in a good way
when someone is diagnosed with phd,
that person gets mutated brain cells which are super absorbent and can grow and grow and grow,
without changing the osmotic pressure in the brain or exerting pressure on the skull
so if a normal person has a memory of 1MB, those ppl with phd will probably have that times 10^infinity or more

i can just imagine all those ppl in the lab with cracked skulls and brains overflowing..
and thinking back on all the mistakes we made, i think we're quite a disastrous pair in the lab
cause we forget to keep the samples chilled, jump around like idiots in the cold room, drop pipette tips into the mediums and wear jackets below the labcoats.. lol....

and during lunch today, that hedgehog was being so emo, then make me wanna cry with her.. aiyoooo.. someone should make her read out the kind of messages that she keeps with her.. tsktsk...

goodnite for now =)

=)

2007-05-30T06:28:00.001-07:00

im loving it =)

argh

2007-05-25T07:08:00.000-07:00

although i have very nice :) groups mates,
the 3 projects which have such high weightages on the overall scores are killing me.
(ROAR) ^ infinity

have been spending all my weekends on projects, projects and more projects! for 2 consecutive wks now.. sat, pw.. sun, chem va... sat, got something, sunday chem va, econs va and we havent done maths
and its not like we slack during mtgs
what crap.
damn, seriously
and there are more to come........
still gotmore pw maths va and econs va

roar
roar
roar
i hate them

maybe projects are designed such that we get more chances to work together.. then we can like understand the importance of team work and BLAHBLAHBLAH (and maybe achieve the teach less learn more effect.......(ya right................) -_-""""")
but, so many projects will just extinguish any interest we have in such things........
wad the..............

is this child labour?

some people say we should enjoy JC life..
but after experiencing less than 6 months of JC life, i think its nothing more than some mad rush.

yes, its nothing more than a mad rush until the day when i decide maybe theres more value to it (this excludes my cca :) )

=)

2007-05-18T03:39:00.000-07:00

Finally, the week is over
I'm so glad its friday :)

This whole week has been a mad rush and yea, i finally know what it feels like to not finish studying even 50% of the bio syllabus before taking the test.. it sucks
and i'm not gonna do that again (i hope........)

anyway, yesterday, my beloved dog got me into deep SHIT with my parents
HE ATE MY FATHER'S DINNER
oh gosh.........
like the saying goes.. a hungry man is an angry man.......
i got a scolding for not pushing in the chair properly after having dinner.. hahah
but all the scolding was done by my mum...hahahha =）my father was quite nice about it even though it was his dinner... ><

and theres stilla whole pile of work (including long overdue bio mcq and differentiation tutorial 2) waiting for me..... :( the thought of it makes me want to hide under the covers，sleep and not wake up again......
such is the life of an idiot like me who lacks the discipline to finish all my work on time
damn

and this morning my angel was SOOOＮｉｃｅ！　
she gave me this piece of banana cake :)
Thank u ANGEL! (though i don't know if u read my blog..)

yup... im gng off now=)
going to cut my irritating hair which is causing me too much trouble to wash and dry everyday.. muahahhaa
waste of water and shampoo
so im going to cut it :)

toodles!!

life

2007-05-09T02:14:00.000-07:00

i was so shocked when she told me about it that day
it never occured to me that something like that would happen to someone so close to me
before that, i always imagined us going through the 2nd graduation night together and i never
thought i would miss having her around in school everyday

it is just so unfair how life turns out sometimes
how illnesses can just rob someone so fit and healthy of the chance to pursue their dreams and live a normal life like eveyone else

for someone who has worked so hard and truly understood what it means to be contented with what she has, i really think it is unfair that she gets chosen to bear the burden of this illness
perhaps it would be less unfair if i am the one inflicted with this horrible disease because i probably deserve it more than her :(

hearing the news really made me think about the vulnerablility of life and this question keeps popping into my mind: what if i was the one?
will i have the courage to face it?
the future seems so bleak now :(

i sincerely pray for her speedy recovery and really hope she can join us for lessons again soon

delayed reaction time

2007-04-25T04:42:00.000-07:00

hello! =)
have been trying to catch up with hw so that i do not get thrown out of class
during tutorials so i couldnt blog about gwh!
hahahha :)
im super happy that our hard work paid off!
can still remember all the emotions that i felt that day。。
the nervousness, the impatience, the elation and joy.. and then exhaustion finally set in :)

its quite weird.. but im missing harmoc practices..
during those intensive training weeks, i was so tired all the time and could even fall asleep while playing the harmoc.. you feel so helpless because as much as you want to stay awake and play... ur eyelids sucuumb to gravity...i didnt even dare to close my eyes while playing cause i know the moment i do that.. i'll just let go of the harmoc... hahaha =)
but now.. im missing practices!!!
if theres one thing i dont regret doing.. it'll be joining harmoc :)
coming to nj has made me realise what friendship is

HAHAHAHA =D

2007-04-19T06:29:00.000-07:00

im so happy today!!!
my lao gong >> mijiao<< smsed me today!!:):):):):)
hahah!
after so long.. "he" finally remembered my existance.. haha
i bet "he" hasn't looked "his" da lao po up in months man..
must be because "he" has found himself another whole lot of mistresses in rj to add to "his" ij collection
i just realised how much i miss IJ
IJ REALLY ROCKS
i didnt cherish the times i had in ij :(
i miss the gang and 4/1 so much!!
still remember the times we hung mijiao's bag on the monkey bars and stuffed it into the dry riser thing... HAHAH! and all the times we made laoshi so exasperated with our inability to speak chinese properly and porsi's lame jokes and mrs selvam's chee-koo-na for enthanoic acid!

tomorrow is FRIDAY!
hahaha :)
which means saturday is near!

and i have more good news to share:)
my mum has kindly allowed amy, pat, jy and joyce to come over for a stayover! =)
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
which means we can talk throughout the night and watch american pie and laugh together!!＝）
can't wait!!!

gtg now!
byebye!

-

2007-04-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

the interview was so extremely screwed up ：(
just stoned on the 1 hr bus ride back to nj for harmoc
because i felt (so)^infinity stupid
argh. must have made a fool of myself and left a bad impression

my third draft for PI is due tomorrow!
and its 10:40 now....
im so sick of submitting draft after draft and getting them back agn and agn...
"lack A&E" "lack GI"
its suppper SIAN
my goodness
:(:(:(:(
and i dont understand transformation!
just hate it when i have so much work to do but am feeling like that : lethargic

my mum is watching "the haunting" on discovery now.. and the sound effects are so eerie.. :(:(:(
just realised that my posts are all so dead and sad lately..
shall blog about something funny/ less sad the next time!

okay.. byebye for now :)

bloob

2007-04-13T06:12:00.000-07:00

The past week was a hectic week... Everyday was so packed with activities, lessons, tutorials and more!
im finding it so difficult to keep myself happy nowadays and i hate it.. roar
i find myself deep in thought about everything that has happened during the past few months and thinking about all the decisions that i've made.. and i feel like such a bad student for not keeping myself awake during tutorials and lectures and falling asleep so easily everywhere
shit.
i guess i really cannot make time go back to change my decision and will have to
do my best to make the best out of this situation but theres always that tinge of regret that grows and threatens to overpower whatever peace there is within me when something goes wrong :(
I feel as if my dreams are drifting further and further away from me the motivation that i used to have is trickling away every second..........
i shouldnt be making such a fuss here because what i'm bothered about is nothing in compared to what others are going through right now
gonna stop complaining now

- "He who does not tire, tires adversity." Anonymous

point of light

2007-04-09T06:14:00.000-07:00

Point of light

There is a point when you can not walk away,
When you have to stand up straight and tall,
And mean the words you say.
There is a point you must decide,
Just to do it because it's right,
That's when you become a point of light.

There is a darkness that everyone must face,
It wants to take what's good and fair,
And lay it on the waste.
And that darkness,covers everything inside,
Until it meets a single point of light.

CHORUS:
All it takes is a point of light
a ray of hope in the darkest night
if you see what's wrong and you try to make it right
You will see a point of light

There are heroes,
Whose name we never hear,
a dedicated army of quiet volunteers.
Reaching out to feed the hungry,
reaching out to save the land,
reaching out to help they'r fellow man.
There are dreamers
who are make this dream come true
taking time to teach the children,
there is nothing they can't do.
Giving shelter to the homeless,
giving hope to those without,
is'nt that what this land all about.

One by one, from the mountain to the see,
point's of light, are calling out for you and me.

(REPEAT CHORUS)

If you see what's wrong
and you try to make it right
You will be a point of light

heard this song at the volunteers appreciation last year
its so meaningful :)

and i tell myself.. 2 years is a short time

dreams

2007-04-07T08:16:00.000-07:00

Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.- Lanston Hughes

chanced upon this quote today and i've decided to dedicate it to everyone out there who
are drowning in their tutorials, tests, projects and cca practices :)

-

2007-04-02T05:27:00.000-07:00

on hindsight, i've decided to remove the previous post :)
i'll reserve my comments until the end of the yr and hope that next yr, 06 will get a much nicer, more responsible _______ tcher

relief

2007-03-21T05:47:00.000-07:00

The past few days were a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Last Friday, we had our auditions for SYF during the harmoc camp and i did not make it through. At the point of time when the results were announced, i was really disappointed. So I went to check the class postings at the atrium and released that i would no longer be with amy, pat and jieying.

I became extremely sad. Maybe i would not have felt so down if i still had them in the same class but the thought of not having their company and being out of syf was just unbearable. I went home and just slept and slept. It was the best way to keep myself from thinking about monday and how i would need to face a new bunch of unfamiliar faces.

Monday came and i was dreading school. I felt so lost in the morning and when i realised that the familiar S06 faces that i have gotten so used to were gone. During assembly, i searched for them amongst the sea of grey and throughout the whole day, there were periods when i felt like just going home because it was so unbearable. Later in the day, we had a harmoc practice and i just could not concentrate. That day, i studied the time table so many times, trying to look for a day to pon school in the course of the week but because of harmoc practices, chem lectures and maths lectures, i forced myself to go to school. Throughout the day, i went back to amy, pat and jieying so many times.. their presence helped to calm me down so much. And sijia，xueli, joyce and i went to ask the teacher to allow s06 to stay as a class but to no avail. :(

Tuesday came and i really wanted to be in the same class as the majority of s06.. i really really wanted it so much. Afterall, nj is still so new and without that familiar group of people who went through orientation with me, school became such a drag. I really wanted to just stay at home but......... got maths lecture -_-"

Today, we had the 2nd auditions. at 3.15, i realised that i still could not get the fast fast part correct.. until 430.. wah.... the feeling really sucks... I wanted to give up so many times. Even the night before when i was practicising. But i did not because it would mean letting so many people down and letting the numerous hours spent on the harmonica go to waste. At 5/6 we had combined and mr tang kept going through the same song over and over again.. i thought i was just going to die during the auditions later because my hands were so tired from flipping the harmoc and at certain parts, my fingers were shivering.. felt so cold and clammy.. finally.. combined ended at 715 and auditions came.. by 730 they were over! and EVERYONE GOT IN! i'm soooooooooooo happy:) it just wouldnt be the same if some were still left out

and so.. here, i would like to thank all the people for making the past 5 days so much better for me...
thank you amy, pat, jieying, joyce for listening to me when i needed a listening ear
and to all the people who encouraged me all this while especially harmoc and OCTAVE! :)
you really mean so much to me...

and i have also decided not to pester mr yeo anymore for mutual swops or change of classes and i shall just stay in s06 because i think i'll get to know my class better in time to come and its just not right to upset anything because of our obstinance. Perhaps all these are part of a plan. Amy, Pat and Jieying! we'll still be GOOD-EST friends even though we are no longer in the same class yea? i really hope we will still attend bio, chem and maths lectures together! :)

i think this is the longest entry ever!
hahaha!
okay.. theres a chem test tmr and i shall go study :)

toodles:)

storms do pass... :)

:(

2007-03-16T05:09:00.000-07:00

if i had to describe the march hols in a word, it would be hectic
hahaha
this is the last weekday of the hols and i still have that pile of homework on my table

checked the class postings today at the atrium :(
why did they have to spilt s06 into 2?
:(:(:(

i'll miss all of you.. so much
those names i saw were so unfamiliar
sigh
can't imagine having lectures, breaks, tutorials and lunch without you guys =(((((((((((((((((((((
i wanna go to s09 where most of you have been posted to
hmphs

im dreading school on monday

Oh life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
And this feelin' that I can go back

boo

2007-03-12T00:38:00.000-07:00

once again, i don't know why i am here but im just so bored
not that i don't have anything better to do but i'm just sick of doing homework :)
so lets relax for awhile and let me tell u a story =) muahaha

not really a story but about the zhps camp!
haha! i don't really know why i signed up in the first place..
perhaps it was because of curiosity but at the same time, i knew i was BAD with children
so i told myself :"nevermind la.. just try"
hahhaa =)

one thing i learnt from the camp is... children are not so bad after all :)
hahaha! those in my group were really sweet!
im too lazy to do an thorough recount of what took place but i really salute them ：）
because they were really brave for their age
haha...i still remember how much i cried during the p5 adventure camp because i was separated from all my friends and ya.. i missed them too much..
so the whole camp sucked for me.. hhaha.. such a cry baby... but luckily nobody knew i was crying :)

the zhps camp was a 2 days 1 night camp and it ended on saturday..
it was a blast! and i had lots of fun although it was a little tiring :)
hopefully they'll all do well for PSLE, go to a school of their choice and then come to NJ! hahaha

gtg now
toodles!

roar

2007-03-07T01:36:00.000-08:00

I don't know what happened but something is wrong with my blog! I can't see most of the posts! =(
Maybe cookie monster was too hungry and it decided to start munching posts as well..

I don't know why i am here but i am just feeling so lethargic .. which explains the pile of homework on my table beckoning to me.. school was such a drag today =( wednesdays are the longest days with the most subjects :/ and i was trying my utmost best not to fall asleep during econs lecture.. its so nice to sleep in LT 5!

Saw some article on global warming today and i thought maybe we'll all die soon..
the increasing magnitude and frequency of natural disasters and the freak weather seems to me like nature's way of punishing us for being such idiots. As we continue to exploit whatever little resources we have, i am sure we will do more damage to the environment. Maybe something like ice-age will come soon and wipe us all out like it did with the dinosaurs.

Hopefully the second intakers are enjoying their orientation because it seems quite weird to be cheering and doing fun stuff when the rest of the cohort are attending lessons.

toodles!

Regrets

2007-03-06T04:11:00.000-08:00

HELLO FOLKS!

i disappeared during the december hols and now im back again
=)
its ironic... because i should have had more free time to blog during the hols.. but oh wells
perhaps its because going to school gives me more things to talk about

posting results were out today
didn't feel excitment or nervous because i didn't take part in JAE

but it set me thinking..
seeing people leave for greener/greyer pastures ..

perhaps there was a little regret
or maybe more than that

if there is one thing i hate, its regret

I dont know whether i made the right choice.
I was so sure initially but now...
Did i make a wrong choice?
well, most people said so
and i want to believe that they are wrong
but i cannot convince myself

have been thinking alot about the future lately...
what if i end up as any regular office worker who wakes up, go to work(reluctantly), come home, eat, bathe, sleep?
is there any meaning to such a life?

next, freedom of speech
do u guys think there is any?
haha.
oh yes, people are talking about freedom of speech all the time
but do we practice it?
theres so much we keep back for fear of trouble
because numerous examples have shown that the best policy is to keep your mouth shut
but then again, how can society progress without constructive criticism?

this entry is so random =/

tomorrow is a new day! perhaps a better one :)

until next time then =)

no matter

2006-08-30T01:55:00.000-07:00

this is a nice song..
but i cant find it anywhere
heard it on TV
haha

No Matter

Doesn’t matter whom you are with
Doesn’t matter where you are going D
on’t you know I’m still waiting here for you
And pray for you

In the sunny days, Sun will light your day
In the windy days, wind will leave your way.
I have to say, you’re my treasured moments
Never gonna walk away
In the rainy days, rains will share my tears
In the stormy days, storms will steal my pain
Just go your way and leave things all behind
Spread your wings and fly away
I’m pretending your mine
I’m wishing you’ll be fine
The moments we share never die
You’ve made a difference to my life

tests

2006-07-21T03:26:00.000-07:00

we just hadd 3 tests today!
they were just....
urm....
FANTASTIC
and so nice of him to say : " SURE FAIL ONE LAR"

physics test
e math test
physics mock prelim practical

physics test was horrendous.. and like he said.. im sure i will fail..
physics prac was worse!
worse prac ive ever done..
so shittified.. and im bloody scared of O lvl prac now
sigh
i bet if i did the prac last yr, i would have failed
:(

ooh!
and guess what happened when i bought a cup of mashed potato from s-eleven!

me: this is nice:)
isabelle: is it?
me: do u want? (i took the cup and put it on the dispensing tray and pressed the button)

then when i looked at the thing again, a yellow stream of mashed potato was squirting out from the machine.. but the cup was on the left side..
muahahaha!
then i decided to wait for it to stop...
then came the part when it started dispensing the sauce.. muahhaa
i put the cup under the thing
then, i pressed the button agn and mashed potato and sauce came out
hahaha
so i had two servings of sauce and 1 serving of mashed potato! :D
hehehe:))
cldnt stop laughing because i was so dumb
hahhahahaa!

2 brothers

2006-06-12T03:18:00.000-07:00

just watched the show on "2 brothers" in HBO

let me tell u the story :)

its about 2 cute little tigers.... they were separated by humans when they were very young
their mother was separated from them too...
then some evil humans trained them to become fierce animals so that humans could watch them fight each other
the brothers were reunited in the arena where they were supposed to fight..
initially, they fought each other.. but afterwards.. they remembered each other and started playing in the arena..
then.. those stupid humans tried to agitate them by throwing stones...
they escaped eventually cause the guy forgot to lock the gate...
the tigers were named kumal and sangha
the hunter who brought kumal out of the jungle was very nice to him.. but kumal ended up the the wrong hands later...
as for sangha.. a little boy took care of him and they loved each other very much.. that was also before Sangha was taken away from the boy to be trained.

after they ran away....... the hunter had to kill them.. but of course he didnt...
the boy went into the jungles to look for sangha whom he still missed... he called : "sangha!"
and the tiger went to him.. the tiger didnt kill him... and the boy told the tiger to leave..
so sad.... .
the hunter was in the jungle as well and he saw kumal...
and he eventually let both of them go....

then somewhere in the jungle... another tiger was calling out for them..
it turned out to be their mother..
=)

so it was a happy reunion...

it was damn touching... aww.
at least i was crying.... hahaha

then at the end of the show....
there was a note..
saying that once upon a time.. 100 000 tigers were living in the jungles.. but now.. there are less than 5000 left..

sigh..
so poor thing rite..
separated from their families and all..

oh wells.. here are some nice pictures for u to enjoy (: